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    not here


    navy guy (or i guess ex-navy now) left this morning…I don’t know if i feel sad, necessarily. It is weird that he’s not here, and I will miss spending time with him, and we did have fun. But a larger part of me is kind of glad to resume my life as it had been before he came to visit. Its not that I wanted him to go, its that , necessarily, but I guess I like my independence too much right now.

    As for how things went–they went well, I guess. Even though I am thinking a million different things, I really want to try and have a clear head about things, and not force any decisions or come to any conclusions right away. It’s kind of hard though, when you are living in the moment with someone. And when that someone is a person that you do connect with.

    Maybe its strange that I can connect with someone, yet still feel so conflicted. I think what it is is that I am unsure of the future and I don’t want to get in too deep both for his and my sake. I don’t worry necessarily about the long-distance nature of things. But I do worry about all the time and effort and whatever I could potentially put into something or someone when I may or may not see a future in it. Its still too soon to tell, and maybe that is weird and telling in itself, I don’t know. It’s been so long since I’ve even thought about this type of thing, so I am not sure what is ‘normal’ and what isn’t.

    Anyway–I’ll just take it as it comes. Do my best to be honest with my feelings. And see what happens from there.


    changes are inevitable

    the roomies: after 2.5 years, one of our roomies is leaving to move in with “the love of his life.” It was an inevitable outcome, as we haven’t seen him much…


    The significance of today

    It dawned on me, after racking my brain, and after coming up with no better explanation than that I’m a girl and Im allowed to be moody, that today is one…



    TEXAS 45, OU 12 NOW WHAT BITCHES!!! —— sorry, I had to go there. too bad they cut off the end of the game in cali. fuckers. —— Last night went…


    Tales from NYC – Part 3

    when we last left off, I had just spent the evening in an Irish bar in NYC surrounded by special agents, one in particular stood out. But then what can you…


    o god

    Came home last night and saw some long dark hair dangling on the couch. I assumed it was my roomie, C, but upon further inspection realized that Worm Lips was sharing…



    for my millionth post today–just wanted to say that beaker called me and left a message. we are going to the racetrack today for our 5.5th date. Want to know why…



    new york was pretty off the chain–or whatever those fucking kids from the O.C. say these days. I feel really hung over right now, which is weird bc I barely drank…


    tag and release

    The deed is done. I sent Dolby a Dear John/youre nice but lets be friends letter. After talking to Beaker last night and to C this morning, I became convinced that…